September 28th, 2013: Secrets

Secrets. One word can ruin your entire life. Be careful who you trust. That's a lesson I learned the hard way. I hope you don't. Unfortunately, it might be too late. You share your heart, and it gets shattered. Just.like.that. I can't tell you enough. Don't tell others secrets. It will come back to you. A life for a life - that's how this twisted world works. Whispers down the hall, sideways glances, an unwillingness to talk to you... That's how it all starts.

Do you know the hardest part? You want to tell someone what's going on. You want someone to help you, to reach out. You want someone to worry about you - ask why you're so down, why you're getting so skinny, what happened to your arms. Then, the second you tell...it's over. You thought you could trust them. You wanted to be accepted, but look what happened. Things like that, that's what makes life so horrible. It's not keeping secrets; it's having someone betray your trust. It's having someone hear your secret and not look at you with care, but with disgust. It's having someone ridicule you when all you wanted was help. To feel loved. I'm telling you right now...Don't tell. I'm not telling you to not tell your own secrets, but I'm telling you to not tell others secrets. Tell your secrets when you're ready. Tell your secrets when you need help. Tell your secrets - it could be your saving grace. But don't tell others' secrets.

The worst feeling in life is when you tell someone everything...and then they walk away. They reject you in the time you needed them the most. Please, I beg you, don't do it. The pain that gives...it will never leave. Nothing can ever repair that.

Pictures of the Day, since sometimes pictures speak louder than words.

A Place to Speak

I know it's hard. I know it doesn't get much better. I'm not here to offer false encouragement. I'm here to offer a place for you to speak. A place for you to read. A place for you to stay. Understanding is not something that comes quickly. Peace comes gradually, like sakura blossoms floating down, one by one. Count them...1...2...3...4...5... Keep going, if you'd like.

I am not here to accuse. I am not here to speak. I am here to listen. I will speak when I need to. I will listen when you need me to. In this world, all can have a new name. Each and every one is nameless, faceless, with no history. We cannot see your stains in this world. You cannot see mine; I cannot see yours. The smile you force on your face, the shadows you use to cover up your sadness... You have no need for those. Speak, and I will listen.

You are not alone. 

Life - What is important?

The one question I ask myself everyday: What is important?

There is so much in life. But sometimes a person just gets lost. Turning in circles. It may not be because you don't think anything is important, but that you think everything is important. What is important to me? What is important to you? How can one answer that question?

Truth be told, I don't have an answer.

I'm a very list-oriented person. If I could, I would make lists of my entire life. I like the control - knowing exactly what I need, what I don't need, and everything in between. Lists make life seem less daunting. And yet, I just can't answer everything.

Brains are only meant to handle 30 seconds of stress. I'm not joking. We learned that very interesting fact at school. 30 seconds. I don't know about you, but I'm pretty sure I'm over my quota...in the last minute.

Life - what is important? For me, I would have writing, grades, reading, and friends. I could go on - family, friends, music... But I'm sure none of you want to hear me ramble about myself. So why am I writing a post about what's important in life?

Because that's a question you have to ask yourself. When you're feeling lost, ask yourself that. Give yourself something to work for - something to live for. In those dark moments, give yourself a light. Sometimes no one but yourself can help. So, what is important?

September 26th, 2013

Song of the Day - "I Dance" by Ivy ft. Jia (Miss A)

I gotta keep on dancing, 'cause the tears coming down my eyes.

I gotta stop romancing, 'cause I can't let myself cry. 

Book of the Day - Wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson

Quote of the Day - "Life is like photography. You need the negatives to develop." -Unknown 

Today, don't be afraid to open up. Change hurts. It's true. Pain grasps at you, never letting you go. But we cling to what we feel is safe, when it really just makes us hurt more. Let go and understand. Don't hide behind your mask - open up and let life out. Make this time yours. Keep on dancing, even with the tears flowing down. 

You are strong.